it...

since this event
i aint been the same
war torn
it left me changed
a scar remains
visible to who
i reveal it to
psychological wound
entombed
embalmed
bring the fluid
i'm mummified
overly medicating
process of preservation
persevere through perspiration

vex like you just stepped
on my boxfresh creps
now i'm more careful
i've already endured an earful
i'm tearful
behaviour awful
speech borderline unlawful
forces are causal
wrote the manual
bars flow so casual
this a token of my esteem
no pipe dreams
aim for the moon miss and land in galaxies
life's an obscene meme
comprised of schemes



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steadfast adherence

consistency is key

no making excuses

starting and stopping

commitment to fitness

nutrition decisions

in competition

with none but self

aim for gains

periodic goals

regimen unfolds

disciplines lack 

plan and attack

restart and reboot

vitamins and supplements

cardio and weights

push plates

walk floors

want more time to train

success and failure

what, if's and maybes

looking back at the past 

saying i should've continued

knowing what to do

but struggling with execution

be harsh with yourself

no excuses

self retribution

knowledge of self

plan to be a better me

daily philosophy

the stresses and pressures

internal lessons


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ambiguity

the ambiguity of identity
it sincerely escapes me
british born domitician
Dominican Kittician
creole patois
cashicrou kittician
with londinium in him
a fusion
heritage caribbean
earth, i'm hue-man
all colours from me
none made me
don't boast about my islands
they're only a boat stops difference

my masculinity
framed in fragility
strength's a fallacy
weakness is my modus operandi
vulnerabilities idiosyncrasies
cultural complexities
what society expects from me
frowning on my sensitivity
don't judge me on my biology
but wait...what do i expect from me


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